Tuesday, February 3, 2009
today is just another typical Tuesday... people go to work as usual, bus and trains still functioning.. but somewhere in sunny island of Singapore time seem to come to a standstill..
continued to slack cos today is still not school day yet. so spend my morning walking around cos there's seems to have a lot of thoughts and thinking begins to flood my small but overloaded mind...
perhaps maybe it's when people is too free, they spend most of the time thinking and daydreaming?? for me it's usually the latter... haha
life for me right now still pretty straightforward... waiting for sch to start tomolo then try to clear the shitty exams and the lame class test.. (esp when they do not add on to it when u "desperately" needed them... Get wat i mean??). managed to delayed my interview with standard chartered to next week! yeah! guess i was not realy to impress ba... need more time to prepare myself...
spent the whole of jan thinking about wat to complete for the rest of the year, making plans and setting up goals for evaluation. perhaps maybe things that happen last year were all just something for me to reflect this year? perhaps that hospital stay really "wake" up the inner me? perhaps i have a higher calling in this life to explain why i din die when it's almost that close for me to leave this world? perhaps having cardiac arrest on that Saturday is all prearranged for me ba... so that i can fully appreciate and live my life. as US's 44th president said during his election campaign "it's time for a change... if you don't support changes, then when is changes going to come? i tell you that the time begins tonite..."
Perhaps perhaps perhaps...
start living a life without any regrets, once decided on something then just go, no looking back...
Bullshit.. as if i can change overnite... haha
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went out in the afternoon to meet zhenyi and Henry to chill out at vivo... 1 word to describe the outing: horrendous. Henry is pretty much his old self, still thinking about having s** and f***ing g**s as his main priority. happened to meet zhenyi's 2 female friends and the poor gals were all scared off by our dear henry... activity for nite programs were also scrapped as henry wanted to go geylang, zhenyi planning to meet some friends at tampines while i just wanna go somewhere alone and stone...
went esplanade and sat by the sea... listening to music with great view overlooking the CBD sets my mind into daydreaming mode again...
and this is my conclusion..
miss those times i was in NTU
miss those times i was in tkd
miss those times i was in SIM
miss those times i was training hard for TOC(IVP) last year
miss those times i was up on the podium collecting my medal, people cheered for me..
miss those times when shifu gave me a pat on the shoulders and said "well done!"
miss those times i was in london experiencing 4 degrees! natural aircon!
miss the day when the equation from (Him = Him), (Her = Her) to (Him + Her) = We
miss that day when we were celebrating Christmas watching fireworks at 12 midnite
miss those times when we went shopping at oxford street
miss those times when we made a mess of the kitchen and cleaning up together
miss those times when you were just by my side
but most importantly...
i miss You... hate to admit it, but it's the truth...
Song for today is: If ever you're in my arms again by Peabo Bryson
Sentence for today: If ever you're in my arms again This time I'll hold you forever..
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@ Tuesday, February 03, 2009
Nothing's gonna change my love for you... -
